What steps can I take to improve?

I got no money. None. I am unemployed, I don't pay bills. I don't qualify for cash assistance. I want to work. Problem is, I'm afraid if I get a job before getting my shoulder examined from dislocating previous times, I may cause further damage that won't heal as I get older. I can't go see a specialist with no money or medical insurance. Secondly I fear weather storms, times where I feel like I get a heart attack which in some cases I've read is Anxiety. I don't know if it's Anxiety is what I have, and I can't go see a specialist with no money or insurance. I am on the "slow" side. I have had social difficulties through school but I have many friends but none educated in what I'm going through. Really, I don't want to be a bother, a hindrance. They know I fear storms and have seen me dislocated my shoulder several times. Probably like 15 times past 7yrs. None severe enough to go to the doctor. It is lose, I just don't know if I am damaging muscles or tissues as of now. I do worry. But that does not confirm I got a disorder until I go see someone in the field. I just don't know how.